My Soul is Screaming: DO IT!

Hi friends,

I'm currently going through a MASSIVE internal transition, and I want to share my messy, real-time process with you. Why? Because I suspect some of you reading this have faced similar thoughts, conflicts and challenges around letting go of what once served you but no longer fits. My hope is that by sharing how ridiculously difficult this has been, it might normalise your own process and maybe give you permission to finally make that leap you've been avoiding.

As a super quick recap: I've been a doctor since 2008 (including 7 years as an army Captain). I dipped my toes into entrepreneurship in 2014 with property investment, then stepped away from medicine completely in 2018 to launch a tech startup. That business taught me everything about what NOT to do in business (so many invaluable lessons!). I went back to medicine in 2019 and set up a medical services company, working as a medical contractor for various organisations. This has been financially successful and gave me the bandwidth to train as a professional coach and launch my coaching business in 2021.

For the last four years, I've been juggling three businesses - medical services, coaching, and property. It's been incredible for entrepreneurship, learning and growth, but my undeniable radical truth has always remained: I've always wanted to leave medicine eventually.

Medicine has never been my passion. I enjoy aspects of it, but it doesn't fulfil me. My passion? Entrepreneurship! And within that, business coaching, specifically, is what absolutely lights me up. I adore the work I get to do with clients, the transformations I witness, the positive impact I have on others, the freedom and autonomy I experience. Unlike medicine, I get to choose who I work with. I also LOVE being a CEO - scheduling my own time, making creative decisions, building my brand, and running my business from anywhere in the world.

I've built very strong foundations for my coaching business over the years. It's sustainable and profitable. AND YET! I've continued running my medical services business.

Why?!? Honestly, because I've massively struggled to let go of this one thing I KNOW no longer serves me.

This has been coming up a LOT recently. Just last week in a group coaching session about breaking free from family expectations, I realised I'm still terrified of my family's reaction when I finally announce I'm quitting medicine for good. The pressure to continue being a doctor has been absolutely enormous - we came to the UK from Colombia as asylum seekers, so every decision was about security and safety. There's also massive GUILT around letting go of something that's served me financially, gave me stability, and honestly, gained me family approval (and love). As much as I hate to admit it, their disapproval still gets to me.

So, here's where I am at right now: I'm meant to complete my yearly medical appraisal this month (it costs around £1400 per year to renew my license). I'd already decided to cut the shifts from 5 per month to just 2 from October onwards and to consider stopping around June 2026 (my intuition has been pushing me towards this decision for a long time), but recently I keep getting this GUT intuitive feeling that I should just relinquish my medical license altogether NOW.

This has stirred me up beyond belief. Sleepless nights, anxiety episodes, massive self-doubt, crying, and fear. I've had to really sit with this and work through it - internally, with my business coach, and in therapy.

But you know what? I actually already KNOW what I want. I desperately WANT to relinquish my license. I WANT to go ALL IN on my coaching business. It’s already working well, it makes me unbelievably happy, I have wonderful clients, I am deeply fulfilled, and I’m about to scale to the next level.

Alongside the fear, anxiety and self-doubt, I am experiencing this massive internal push (which is getting louder and louder), as if my soul is screaming: DO IT!!!! - My intuition is begging for me to just trust myself and go for it - but I’ve continued to allow my fears to have the final say. When I am able to quiet my mind, I can clearly FEEL a sense of certainty within my gut. A sense of ‘this is the right path for you - go for it!’.

So WHY am I still struggling with this decision?! Because for so many years, medicine has been intrinsically linked to my identity, security, independence, and family approval. I thought I was being 'prudent' by keeping just a few shifts per month ‘just in case.’ But the undeniable truth is that this ‘safety net’ has been draining me, splitting my focus, making me feel totally misaligned, and robbing me of the full extent of joy and impact I've been building through my coaching business.

Speaking of which - this whole transition is exactly why I'm launching my new Business Coaching Community, 'The Adventurous Solopreneur.' It's for people like you and I who are navigating these messy, scary, necessary transitions but still choosing to go for our dreams and build our businesses. A place where we can support each other through the process of betting on ourselves and designing lives we actually love. A place where you can access transformational business coaching whilst making friends and growing together as a tribe. If you're interested in being part of this journey with me and other like-minded Solopreneurs, you can join the waitlist [HERE]. The founder's launch (with special pricing and bonuses) opens to just 20 people for one week only.

So, this week, I've committed to making my final decision. Will I relinquish my medical license and go all in? Or will I continue clinging to this safety net that's actually causing me harm? The answer seems obvious - but trust me, the turmoil is real! I recently had an amazing conversation with a close friend who helped me see things so clearly and encouraged me to trust in myself and bet on myself - it really helps to gain objective perspectives from people that genuinely care about us. I also have sessions with my coach and therapist this week, which will hopefully help me get to the point of making the right decision for me (or to be more accurate, to take ACTION on the decision I already intuitively know is the right one).

It's so much easier being a coach to other people (I know EXACTLY what I'd tell a client in this situation!) but when it comes to ourselves, we really do need that outside perspective and support.

And now over to you: What's the ‘medicine’ in your life? That thing you know you need to let go of but are terrified to release? The identity, job, relationship, or situation that once served you but now feels like a weight? Hit reply and let me know - I read every email, and I love to hear how others are navigating these types of transitions.

Thank you for reading this far and for witnessing my messy, real process.

Wishing you courage for whatever transition you're facing,

With love,

Marcela

Marcela Aguirre

Helping Brilliant Solopreneurs & Founders Gain the Know-How & Confidence to Build a Fun, Sustainable One-Person Business | ICF Certified Coach | Doctor | Ex-Military Officer | 1:1 | Group Coaching & Workshops | Speaker

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